Which is the greater struggle? The struggle to keep moving--get out of bed, into the next room, pick up your bag, why is it so heavy, out the door, into the car, out of the car, up the stairs, down the stairs, to the next meeting, the next task, the next obligation, the next cup of tea, how would any of this be possible without the next cup of tea, one more step, one more sentence, one more minute, keep the momentum, catch up, keep up, stand up, step up--?

Or the struggle to keep still--to be quiet--to be calm--to be clear--to pay attention--?